Saturday, February 23, 2008

Still trying to absorb


This.

http://junkfoodscience.blogspot.com/2008/02/i-think-therefore-i-am-part-three.html

And the idea that discrimination leads to bad health due to stress levels. Especially this sentence...

Children living in the most socially disadvantaged settings (poor, minority, low-education and without parents) have four times the risks of poor health, regardless of health insurance and access to healthcare. One study of Canadian children, ages 6 to 10, found that those from low socioeconomic families had significantly higher stress cortisol levels than same-age children from high socioeconomic families.


High cortisol levels. As in Cushing's syndrome, or Pseudo-Cushing's syndrome. She's arguing, I believe, that obesity in and of itself doesn't lead to health issues, it's the increased stress due to discrimination based on obesity.

Or on being Jack's red-headed stepchild, the supposed lesbian, who's not really a woman under those clothes. And so on, and on. After all the lies he told about me to isolate me, is it any wonder I was discriminated against, on top of being discriminated for being fat and living in California. Up to and including crappy health care that let to my back problems now.

I still need to get my back fixed, but now that I'm in a better place, and head space, well the possibilities could be endless.

I want to learn

The joy of being a housewife is that at least until the kids come around, your time is really your own.

The problem is figuring out what you want to do with it.

I've been thinking over the idea of making a "life list", and ongoing list of things I'd like to do before I die. So far I have...

Knit myself real, honest to god socks, in a week or less. Be that kind of good.
Knit myself a sweater. Actually finish a project that big. Twice, so I know it wasn't a fluke.
Knit a bridal lace shawl. One of these will do nicely.
Learn to speak another language, not Spanish and not Italian. French? Arabic? Portuguese?
Learn to play piano.
Learn to cook really good Chinese food.
See the Alhambra
Drive through New England, and see Williamsburg and Boston.
Tour England.
Visit Tel Aviv, just to see what it's really like.
Ride a motorcycle.

I have no doubt more will be added.

At the moment I'm looking at this list, and looking at my current yarn bill. Lace scarf pattern, $6.00 (Start small),...needles for two-at-a-time sock pattern and sock yarn, $9.78....yarn for a sweater vest, enough for a whole project at once (still starting small), $32.23...kit for a travel sewing kit, $14.90

Being convinced your dreams, even if they aren't big ones, deserve the investment...yea, priceless. You knew that was coming.